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The Halves Loaf of Bread – Omar Suleiman
There was a man, a rahib, a monk,
who worshiped Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى)
in his temple for 60 years.
So, a woman came in his presence
and he started to develop an attachment to this woman,
and he ended up committing zina with her,
and he stayed in that state for 6 nights.
What happened to this man
as he came to that realization?
Their eyes are wide and they’re paying attention now,
and they say, “How did this happen?”
“Where am I?”
“How could I have fallen like this?”
So, this man was not caught.
The woman was not pregnant.
He could have disappear,
and let’s pretend this never happens,
and worried about the people that would find out.
Instead, look at the sincerity,
he was tawbah, the man himself woke up.
He ran away.
He went to another Masjid,
which is a very smart move.
You don’t escape from Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى)
except to Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى).
“I need to start over
and I need to beg Allah for forgiveness,
but I need to get out of here.”
So, he went from his own Masjid,
the one that he used to worship Allah,
to another Masjid.
So, he went to that masjid
and he took residence in that Masjid for three days,
and he did not eat anything for three entire days.
It’s not that he was starving himself,
it’s not that he was trying to commit suicide,
it’s that he was so immersed in his repentance
that he was not even eating or drinking.
He wasn’t paying attention to his food and his drink
which is the testimony to the man’s sincerity in this case.
This man sitting in the Masjid now for three nights
crying over what he committed for six nights,
not even thinking about the 60 years
that preceded those six nights.
Because right now those six nights
obscured all of the those years of worship to Him,
begging Allah for forgiveness..
So, some people noticed him in the Masjid.
They brought to him a loaf of bread.
And they told him, “Ya Fulan…
O, so and so you haven’t eaten.
Go ahead and eat your bread.”
He broke the bread into two pieces.
He gave one half of it to someone on his right,
one half of it to someone on his left,
and the man continued to immerse himself
in seeking forgiveness from Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى).
At that very moment,
Allah sent the angel of death in that moment to him
and took his soul.
So, he died in the Masjid
in a state of repentance,
the place where he started.
Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) put his 60 years of worship
on one side of a scale.
And Allah put that six nights of adultery
on the other side.
The six nights were heavier
than his 60 years of worship.
Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) mentions, “Don’t void your charity.”
Sometimes charity, good deeds, can be voided.
So, those six nights voided his 60 years.
Allah brought forth that piece of bread
and then put the bread on one side of the scale
with his six nights of sin,
the bread outweighed his six nights of adultery
and entered him into Jannah.
So, the first lesson we take from this is that concept
how many people are affected by my sins.
Are they between me and Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى)
and I’m actively working on them,
or are they affecting other people.
And then you look at your good deeds,
and the best good deeds
are not just the ones that affect yourself
but that are affect the people around you.
So, his sin only impacted himself,
but his good deed was to others.
The man recognized himself
before he was caught by others.
One of the greatest tragedies of sin
is when you wait for someone else to stop you
than stopping yourself.
“I got away with this once.
I kept on doing it and doing it and doing it and doing it.”
When a person commits a sin,
the most powerful motivating factor to quit that sin
needs to be Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) and nothing else.
And in the situation of this man,
he did not wait to be caught, he caught himself.
The third thing we learned from this,
the good deed that preceded his sin
did not avail him of any good on the Day of Judgment.
The good deed that comes after his sin,
did help him and make his case to Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى)
So, make sure you follow up your sin with a good deed.
Now, shaitan comes to you
and he tells you one of two things,
either, “What’s the point of doing good deeds now,
you should just despair for the rest of your life.”
“You’re a filthy horrible human being,”
or even worse, “Why don’t you just keep sinning now
or sin to cover up for your sin
and keep digging yourself into this hole?
You might as well you’re already deep in it.”
Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) calls you to His karam
and His generosity and benevolence and His mercy
even in your lowest moments.
Do not let the shaitan or your loneliness
or your false sense of guilt lead to despair.
Instead, see what you can do now to compensate
for that which you’ve committed.
And finally subhanallah,
if you look at the sin versus the hasanah that he did,
we’re going to make mistakes,
we’re gonna fall in the sight of Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى),
but let the beauty of your tawbah to Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى),
let it be a beautiful repentance.
We also see that Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى)
out of mercy to this person,
Allah set him up in a situation
where he could do some good.
He didn’t go out and look for sadaqa,
but Allah pushed that charity towards him
due to the goodness that Allah saw inside of him.
And the Prophet (ﷺ) said,
“When Allah loves a person,
He guides him right before his death
and overlooks his entire life of disobedience.”
Some people of goodness,
they have good, but they don’t have hidayah yet,
they don’t have guidance yet.
There’s something missing.
The essential ingredient is missing.
And Allah (عَزَّ وَ جَلَّى) implants it
in those last moments of their life
in order to do away with everything that preceded it.
If Allah makes you stand up you will never fall, and if he lets you fall and leaves you to yourself, you will always fall.
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